Awesome June 30, 2009

Found out today supervisor had a come to jesus with bossy. Pretty much boiled down to her getting her shit together and not treating me like crap, or she gets canned. LOVE IT!

Bossy of course started defending herself saying I was doing all of this stuff to her – hello, I hardly ever talk to her. Like ever, and when our paths do cross, I make sure to say what I need to and move on. I think supervisor is finally seeing her true colors. We have paycuts, hour cuts and are loosing some other things, bossy marches into supervisors office and tells her that SHE isn’t taking any of this stuff. Ummmm, hello, it’s an across the board thing, dumb ass. No one has an option. If it’s starting at the top and working it’s way down, there is no way you can say you’re not doing it. Especially when the CEO is taking a bigger hit than the rest of us.

Sometimes Life Is Too Confusing June 28, 2009

I am a planner by nature, and I don’t like when things come out of left field. It frustrates me, and it’s even more frustrating when it’s something that doesn’t have a clear cut answer. I hate that. I know sometimes it’s good to make a list of pros and cons, but in this case it isn’t really helping and it seems to be clouding the issue even more.

I mean, I’m a pretty decisive person, I decide I’m going to jump out of a plane, I do it. I decide I’m going to get a new tattoo I do it. Right now, I’m standing at the edge of the cliff and almost ready to take a totally blind leap of faith. I’m not sure if I can. I’m scared of falling again and of the crash that seems to be inevitable. But it might not be a crash, I might have a parachute suddenly open up and it take a new adventure, one which could be really good, or horribly bad. If it’s bad, I don’t know how I would recover. As I get older it is harder and harder to keep brushing the dust off and getting back on that horse. But if I don’t will I always wonder?

I’ve tried hard to live without regrets, I have a couple that still kill me. I know I can never go back and change the outcome of those. Ugh, why can’t life just come with an instruction book and I would know what to do?

A (Not So) Typical Saturday With My Parents June 13, 2009

This was my adventure with my parents for the weekend.

So I had to run into Wal-Mart quick and I came out and my parents were gone I felt very where the heart is and was afraid I would have to live here. They just needed to pick stuff up too and didn’t tell me. I am putting myself up for adoption again to people who don’t leave their children in Wal-Mart to fend for themselves. That’s just bad parenting.

Another Post….No, Your Eyes Are Not Playing Tricks On You June 2, 2009

This is more like a facebook feed, but whatever, I’m blogging it, so there!

Today was a GOOD day at work, well aside from one of my tenants calling me Amy, and, you know, NOT my name, but whatever. And one of the girls I work with (Bossy) exerting her non-existent “power” over me telling me how to do my job while in front of one of the guys from another department. AWESOME, also, the fact that she has no idea what she was talking about.

And a co-worker and I were laughing so hard at something totally dumb I was crying. I haven’t done that in a long time.

Very Belated Update May 30, 2009

Wow, it’s been a while. Since I loked myself in the office I have also locked myself OUT of my apartment building. That was awesome, especially combined with the I don’t know any of my neighbors fact. I was very lucky to find someone still up and willing to let me in.

Then I went to SC to visit The Monogram Queen and her family. It was a blast – just what I needed! We drank a lot and I went to the races (car) for the first time. Let’s just say, racing is way to stressful for this yankee! I even won a shirt at the race track the 2nd night dancing to the YMCA, drunk Bella was out that night! Oh my, haven’t drank like that in quite some time, I was able to maintain my rockstar status. It was a lot of fun, and I really enjoyed myself, thanks for a great weekend!

Last weekend I went to MI for a family reunion thing. Had the opportunity to see one of my old friends who I rarely see. It was an interesting evening. Went on a booze cruise thing, got dropped on my ass, met a DJ named G*ravy and got to drive the boat. All in all, wasn’t a bad evening. The next day was the family reunion thing, it was lovely – my family didn’t know who I was. They thought I was my sister. AWESOME. Especially since we look nothing a like and you know, don’t know anything about either one of us. Anyway, it was an ok time. It is just akward being around people you know (and are related to) but don’t really know….. But now that I’ve seen them I don’t have to see them again for another 10 years. It is what it is though. Nothing you can do about it, ya know?

I also went to a sushi making class, and it was fun! I need to pick up stuff so I can make it. I was actually impressed at how easy it was. The class left a little to be desired, I think it would have been fun to take with people I knew – the instructor was a little disorganized and I think some of it could have been better but really for what I paid for it, can’t complain too much.

Last week TMP and I went to a book signing by Jen Lancaster, I was surprised at how busy it was this year. Seriously there had to be triple the number of people there this year. It was very cool to see how her popularity grew in the last year. Can’t wait for next year!

That’s the brief update, I will do my best to not abandon the blog, at least once a week I will try to post. Life has been crazy with work and all – same old, same old. You know how it goes, but I’m still around, you just have to know how to find me!

Further Proof I Am A Dumbass A.K.A. Thank God I’m Pretty April 19, 2009

So, I worked late Saturday, (went in at 5, so, no, I wasn’t there all day long – I have this project I’m working on that takes away from my regular duties and pretty much is a 2nd job as far as my work load goes, anyway……..)

 

I go to leave and I have to go through the copy room, and was locked in it. AWESOME. The door to the copy room was locked – I did not know the receptionist locked it when she left, and I had her lock the door to the business office when she left as I don’t have a key – anyway, yep, locked in. Thank God there was a bathroom and I work in a nursing home and there is someone around 24/7. I had to call our other campus for the phone number of one of our nursing stations and they saved the day.

 

It’s official. I’m just all kinds of special. I hope you have a good laugh on my behalf, because lord only knows I sure am.

Thank You All So Much April 6, 2009

Today was seriously one of the best birthdays I’ve had in a very long time. Work sucked, but when doesn’t it. My cheesecake went over very well. Had dinner with a very dear friend and a couple of drinks. Got some cards and a gift in the mail. Expecting a couple of more gifts, can’t complain. I am a very lucky girl. I have some of the greatest people in the world as friends.

It’s My Birthday, It’s My Birthday April 6, 2009

Yay me.

I made my cheesecake for work tomorrow, one with thin mints & the other with strawberries. Hope they go over well!

After work tomorrow, I will be having dinner with one of my oldest “cities” friends. I’m excited to get together with her, we don’t see each other nearly enough. It will be a nice and low key evening. Just what I need.

Here’s The Thing April 2, 2009

Not all has been well in my little world lately. I’m sure some of you may have noticed. My posts are fly-by and often disjointed making no sense to anyone, me included. I’ve been sleeping like crap again, and totally (well kinda, but not on purpose) avoiding my friends, or just not being in contact with them. (Also, work is incredibly insane and I have been doing most of my e-mailing and calling on my walks between facilities. I get a good 3 minutes to myself doing that.)

Here it is all laid out in it’s ugliness. I am stressed. As in super. Between work, and Bossy (more about that later) volunteering – that’s really not even an issue, but it’s always on the calendar, money, car stuff, all of that crap that comes with being a fricking adult. When I get stressed I either run myself ragged or tend to hibernate. These days it’s a little bit of both actually. It’s my birthday on Monday, and I haven’t even planned anything. I don’t even care. Those of you who KNOW me, know that I generally tend to enjoy my birthday and have birthday month. This year, I don’t even give a shit about it. It’s not because of the number (29 again, thankyouverymuch) it’s because I have so much fucking stress I can’t even enjoy life right now.

Work is seriously kicking my ass. It’s not even funny. The nice thing, the weeks FLY by and I can’t ever believe that it’s Thursday, already. I do not have any balance. I don’t know how to find it right now. Bossy girl is seriously sucking the soul out of me. Again, her and I are involved in a fucked up pissing match. One that shouldn’t even be happening. I can’t deal with her anymore. When I have questions, I would like them answered, I would like to be in the loop about MY FUCKING JOB. I would also like to be able to finish a sentence and not be cut off in the middle of it and given some basic respect. I have had to give it to her – apparently it doesn’t work both ways. I have had meeting after meeting with my supervisor about this, and really, I’m not thrilled about that either. She at least recognizes that I am making a huge effort and am actually better with the clients we deal with than Bossy is. But, I am getting frustrated that I am having the same conversation with her over and over. I haven’t been there 90 days yet, and still could be let go without reason – I am concerned that my not getting along with Bossy is going to get me canned. I don’t want to be the whiny one, but when I’m not not working to my capacity and have so much to learn it’s frustrating. One good thing, we will be hiring a temp. to handle a HUGE portion of my job that is seriously super easy and as my CFO said, I am a sharp girl and my skills could be utilized much better elsewhere in the organization. You know, like by doing MY FUCKING JOB. Oh, wait, I can’t do that until Bossy fucking teaches it to me. I hate her, she pisses me off to no end.

I am happy I have a job and realize that they are hard to come by, I am LUCKY. I have really no reason to complain. My health is decent, I have very dear friends and I am going on vacation next month.

So, to my dear friends, yes, I suck. Hopefully in another month or so, I’ll be back to being myself again and we will actually see each other face to face and before then, I promise I’ll e-mail more.

Sometimes March 29, 2009

I just get frustrated when there is something I want to know but it isn’t any of my business to begin with.

Maintenance ignores my requests. Carpets didn’t get done again. This is the 2nd appointment they have just “forgotten”.

Totally had more to blog about, damned if I can remember. I’ll be back when I can remember it.